stuck

modflowers: recent work So, the dog is gone.

We all cried. We still feel sad. Both for her, and for ourselves. We wanted a dog, but after our experience with Lupin… it is not to be.

There will not be another dog. I think that ship, the one with our dog on it, has sailed.

It’s been just over a week now, since we took her back.

During that week I discovered that three of the seven pups in her litter have been returned to the rescue, because of similarly difficult-to-live-with traits. So Lupin is currently living with one of her brothers, which is a nice thought in a way, but sad for both dogs in reality.

modflowers: recent workI also discovered that the rescue are already advertising her for adoption, describing her as “good with other dogs and children over twelve”. Lad is thirteen. When we took Lupin back, I gave them two sides of A4 listing all of her problems. Right at the top was the problem of her ongoing aggression towards lad.

So I called to tell them, again, that she wasn’t good with children over twelve. Or men. Or strangers generally. But it seems that their one-day assessment of Lupin’s character trumps our nearly-six-months of living with her. They say they have seen no evidence of aggression. So that’s that.

The thought that another family may go through the same painful experience as us upsets me greatly, as does the thought of Lupin facing a third rejection, but having handed her back it seems there is nothing more I can do about it. And so I have had to breathe deeply and let go.

modflowers: recent workA week later, and I am still hoovering up dog hair and wondering what to do with the packets of dog treats in the cupboard.

I should be getting on with work, I have lots to do, but I seem to be stuck.

Inspiration is always sparse at this time of year, but it’s worse than that. I feel a bit panicky when I try to start work. Some of the work I have done has not, to my eye at least, been my best.

Our new neighbours are knocking through their kitchen at the moment and it is very noisy. The builders have managed to dislodge the plaster on our adjoining kitchen wall – chunks and dust come cascading down. But that’s no excuse.

I clean the house as displacement activity. I try to drag up some creativity from somewhere, but it appears to have gone into hibernation for the duration.

It’s not because of the dog, I think. It’s just the winter, dragging on. It seems, like me, to be stuck. It afflicts me every year, this dark period after Christmas. I need to get stuck in, but instead I get stuck in a time warp.

Roll on spring. ♥

fantastical & magical

modflowers: recent work by Sophie WoodrowI always think that the solstices are the most magical times of year.

Midsummer, with its endless lingering twilight, is the time of the faeries.

Midwinter however, with it’s sparkling frosts, is host to something altogether darker…

modflowers: recent work by Sophie Woodrowmodflowers: recent work by Sophie WoodrowThese fantastical and magical creatures are the work of ceramic artist Sophie Woodrow.

They make me think of the approaching winter solstice.

I can see these creations in my mind, rimed with frost, sparkling in the moonlit darkness…

Think The Wolves of Willoughby Chase or The Midnight Folk.

modflowers: recent work by Sophie WoodrowAlthough I don’t love winter, the beauty of this brittle season is something I can appreciate.

For me, the bewitching strangeness of these works seem to compliment it’s magic perfectly. ♥

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on me ‘ead!

modflowers: berets by colorshiftyarnSo, I hear tell that winter is on it’s way.

It was warm yesterday, but I am steeling myself for the impending cold.

I tried on all my woolly hats the other day and – alas – I can’t find my favourite vintage fair isle beret. I’ve had it for years, but it seems to have just disappeared into thin air.

Plus, the bargain neon pink one that has also served me very well in recent years appears to have faded in colour, and consequently has lost some of its charm.

So I am on the lookout for a replacement. A bit of fair isle… not too expensive, nice colours…

modflowers: vintage fair isle beret from vintagelifestylemodflowers: fair isle berets from shetlandlaceshawls.co.ukmodflowers: fall flower beret by TijaCrochet on Etsymodflowers: knitted tam o'shanter by lisa kay knitsmodflowers: vintage knitting pattern from knittingpatternbazaar on ebayI’ll know it when I see it. But thus far I can’t find one that’s quite right.

If you spot a nice one, do let me know.

It’s at times like this that I wish I could knit. ♥